Upside Down Bouncing Off The Ceiling
Whilst you may recognise the title above as the catchy chorus of the eponymous A-Teens classic this post is actually more trauma.
Good News First: I got offered the job I mentioned as a secondment. It's great because for 3 months I will do that and a bit of my current role, then my current contract is up anyway and I can go and apply for something else with recent experience. Whoo.
Upside Down: I mentioned I saw my ex on Tuesday evening and it was nice. We had 'relations' and a hug good bye. I emailed saying hope we can stay in touch, value your friendship etc etc. He replied saying since you took your Mum's side in the court case (about 18 months before we broke up!) I haven't been able to trust you and I don't value your friendship.
How shitty is that - we meet, we laugh, we have sex (foolish in reterospect) and then he responds with that. My friend says he a 'bad man' (not quite verbatim!) and I should just leave him to it. But it really offends me that he thinks this.
a) because most of the trauma and the wracking depression I had was brought about trying to manouver in such a way that I wouldn't fuck my mum over and I wouldn't damage our relationship. I did everything I could to be sympathetic to the fact he had to support his dad.
b) becuase he accused me of being a thief (the case is about money and whether its paid back) by consipring and I really, really resent the accusation.
c) his opinion weirdly and rather annoyingly still matters to me because I think he's usually pretty pricipled if a little dogmatic a times. He's also bloody minded which means if he has decided what's right, then will cling on like whatever that animal is that has teeth biting backwards to keep its prey.
Anyway - I'm supposed to be writing up a business case and a report about improving haemato-oncology services. It's almost as interesting. Honest.
Good News First: I got offered the job I mentioned as a secondment. It's great because for 3 months I will do that and a bit of my current role, then my current contract is up anyway and I can go and apply for something else with recent experience. Whoo.
Upside Down: I mentioned I saw my ex on Tuesday evening and it was nice. We had 'relations' and a hug good bye. I emailed saying hope we can stay in touch, value your friendship etc etc. He replied saying since you took your Mum's side in the court case (about 18 months before we broke up!) I haven't been able to trust you and I don't value your friendship.
How shitty is that - we meet, we laugh, we have sex (foolish in reterospect) and then he responds with that. My friend says he a 'bad man' (not quite verbatim!) and I should just leave him to it. But it really offends me that he thinks this.
a) because most of the trauma and the wracking depression I had was brought about trying to manouver in such a way that I wouldn't fuck my mum over and I wouldn't damage our relationship. I did everything I could to be sympathetic to the fact he had to support his dad.
b) becuase he accused me of being a thief (the case is about money and whether its paid back) by consipring and I really, really resent the accusation.
c) his opinion weirdly and rather annoyingly still matters to me because I think he's usually pretty pricipled if a little dogmatic a times. He's also bloody minded which means if he has decided what's right, then will cling on like whatever that animal is that has teeth biting backwards to keep its prey.
Anyway - I'm supposed to be writing up a business case and a report about improving haemato-oncology services. It's almost as interesting. Honest.
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